Sunday, May 12, 2019

A Story of a Mother

"Bersama-sama kesusahan itu, Allah sediakan kemudahan (jika kamu mengetahuinya)."

Assalamualaikum, dear readers.
Tergerak hati untuk saya kongsikan satu kisah seorang ibu yang saya jumpa semasa bekerja beberapa hari lalu. Hopefully, this story will open doors to our heart towards seeing how big is the Mercy of Allah.

Satu hari semasa saya bekerja di jabatan kecemasan, ditakdirkan saya menerima seorang pesakit yang terlibat dalam kemalangan kecil semasa menunggang motosikal bersama dua orang anaknya.

Si ibu yang berusia lewat 30-an ini hanya mengalami kecederaan ringan di tangan dan kakinya, sementara anak lelaki beliau yang berusia 2 tahun terpaksa dibawa ke dewan pembedahan untuk merawat luka di kepala.

Sementara menamani anaknya di hospital, tiba-tiba ibu mengadu berasa kurang selesa di bahagian perutnya. Lalu beliau dinasihatkan untuk membuat pemeriksaan lebih lanjut.

Dalam kes trauma, salah satu prinsip rawatan untuk memastikan tiada pendarahan atau kecederaan dibahagian abdomen, doktor akan membuat ujian FAST scan melalui ultrasound.

Sebelum melakukan ujian itu, saya memeriksa perut si ibu. Kelihatan seperti ada 'mass' di situ. Lalu saya pun bertanya lebih lanjut kepada ibu tersebut.

"Puan bila kali terakhir datang bulan?"

"Dua tahun lepas, doktor."

"Eh, selalunya period memang tak regular ke, atau puan ambil pil perancang?"

"Saya tak ambil apa-apa pil perancang pun. Tapi sekarang saya masih menyusukan anak bongsu saya. Last saya melahirkan dua tahun lepas."

Dalam hati saya sudah berasa tidak sedap hati. Ish, fibroid ke besar macam ni? Jangan-jangan..

"Puan ada perasan tak perut puan semakin besar atau ada sakit-sakit perut sebelum ni?"

"Tak ada, doktor. Tapi bila saya baring, kadang-kadang ada rasa benda timbul ke sini sekejap-sekejap kat atas."

"Okay, tak pe ibu. Kita scan dulu ye perut."
Saat probe scan diletakkan di bahagian 'mass' tadi, mak datuk! Terbeliak mata aku. Sekali lagi aku bulatkan mata, betul ke apa yang aku nampak ni? Puan nampak tak apa yang saya nampak? *sorry buat ayat suspen.

"Mashaallah puan. Sebenarnya puan mengandung. Cuba tengok ni. Ini kepalanya, yang gerak-gerak tu kaki dan tangannya. Alhamdulillah, itu degupan jantungnya. Nampak kan?"

"Ya, Allah doktor. Sungguh saya tak sedar langsung saya mengandung."
The first thing she asked, "Anak saya selamat ke?"

"Melalui scan, jantungnya masih ada dan berfungsi. Tapi untuk pemeriksaan lanjut, saya perlu rujuk pada doktor bahagian sakit puan untuk keselamatan puan dan kandungan."

"Alhamdulillah, rezeki saya doktor."

Okay, kisah selebihnya dirahsiakan.

Of course question may come to our mind, "Impossible la tak perasan mengandung?"
To be truth, there are quite a lot of occasion woman didn't realise she is pregnant until a certain point.

The point I want to share is, look how amazing aturan Allah is to this mother.
If not because of the accident, she may not know that she is pregnant till now.
And with that difficulty, Allah shows her a gift that she never had imagined she is having - a blessing of a child.

"Allah mengetahui apa yang dikandung oleh setiap perempuan dan apa yang kurang sempurna dalam kandungan itu dan apa yang lebih. Dan segala sesuatu telah ditetapkan ukuran atau nilaiannya  di sisi-Nya." Surah Ar-Ra'd, 13:8.



A child is a blessing.
*Footnote: this is not the scan for this mother.  


p/s: We pray that Allah opens our heart to witness His Blessings and Greatness in every single thing that we do in our daily life. In each experience, there will always something that we can learn. :)
Semoga ibu dan kandungannya sihat, amin.


















Monday, April 22, 2019

Pending Decision




Typical place for reading. A coffee and a book. 


As for now, I'm approaching the end of my housemanship year. But still, I dont have the answer to my next career path. I can say I almost love every department that I went through. Don't know which suits me the best. How long should I wait until I confidently say, "Yes, I'm doing this. Bring it on." *sigh, i dont know.

Life is about turning into different roads. Whether you want it or not, you have to face the reality which is placed in front of you.

They say the important thing in life isn't the destination, it's the journey. The challenges you face along the way, the unexpected twists and turns, the disappointments you overcome.  But they're wrong. It's all about the destination. Especially when the destination is your amazing unimaginable heavenly place that is promised from your Creator.

p/s: * Maybe we are the way we are because of the people we are with.
Or maybe we just pick the people we need.

Sunday, January 6, 2019

I'm Still Alive

Assalammualaykum and hi dear readers!
It's been way too long since I wrote an entry in my blog. Looking back, there was not even one entry that I wrote in 2018!
You must have been thinking what on earth do housemanship life did to me, yeah? :O

Frankly speaking, being a houseman is a tremendously challenging phase as a junior doctor. To be able to adapt yourself in a working environment need constant perseverance, patience, and bravery. Not to forget, a fit physical body, mind, emotional, and spiritual values also plays a role in determining how far you can progress in becoming a competent doctor. I'll share with you some of the memorable experiences that I encounter in my HOship journey once I finished all the six postings. I would like to recap everything in one entry (or perhaps in parts) later. So, stay tune okay!

I would like to say thank you for all the feedbacks on my writings. Honestly, I was truly surprised to receive some heart warming comments and emails from anonymous readers. Please, if you feel it's worth sharing, then feel free to do so. By all means, every good words and thoughts came from the inspiration that Allah gave to us. So, keep on spreading the words of love to everyone that may benefits. You will never know how words may change some people's life. I just pray that it will touch your heart in a way that it brings goodness in your life, and not the otherwise. :) 

Welcome 2019.

Yours truly, RNS.



Friday, May 12, 2017

A Temporary Gift by Asmaa Hussein - Book Review



I added sticky notes for quotes to ponder in future.


If I were to quote the sentences from its pages, I would rather be presenting to you the entire of this book. So it is because each word that Asmaa had written in her book has really touched every corner of my heart.

The way she described her struggles of her journey in this world, made me shock and in awe. How could she endure all her pains in such a beautiful manner? This piece of her writings represents how much wisdom Allah provides to her after every difficult affair she faced in her life. She never fails to relate her experiences and her feelings to the surahs from the Quran.

Asmaa also took examples of many stories from the prophets and the earlier people whom Allah tested with difficulty in life. This made me realize, that, every story of the previous people Allah mentioned in the Quran is meant for us to learn from them. The stories taught us to believe that Allah will help us in the same way He helped our predecessors. So, what we read in the Quran are not merely for a storytelling, but for us to understand and know The Mercy of The Almighty to His slaves. It's for us to have faith that Allah always keep His promises.

I am really glad to know Asmaa's writing. Back then, I was in search of an inspiration that may lift up my spirit. Like everyone else, I too had experience in love, loss, and healing. But to me, Asmaa is the example of people whom Allah granted them wisdom through calamities. She wrote it with admiringly excellent poetry that I believe will grab the attention of anyone who ponders upon her lines.

I personally recommend you to read this book once in your life! When we feel that we are burdened with tests that almost unbearable and we are losing in faith, remember that there's always other people whom Allah test them with a heavier tragedy. Why then don't we feel thankful?

"This book is a reminder that beyond the pain and darkness of loss there is still the potential of light in patience and constancy."

Thank you, dear Asmaa Hussein. :)

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Happy Faces on MSU 20th Convocation, MBBS graduands





 My comrades - Dr. Raja, Dr. Fauhan, Dr. Amalina, Dr. Nabihah, Dr. Siti, Dr. Shazni, Dr. Aishah


As I woke up this morning, I noticed the bouquet of flowers that I received on my convocation day has started to become wilt. Despite that, my smartphone continue to get notifications from social networking, most commenting 'Congratulations, DR. RNS!' Aww... How much more happy can I be? Thank you for the warm wishes :P So everyone, please allow us, graduates from MSU to spam your timeline with our happy faces!

This post is actually meant to express my gratitude to everyone that involved in my journey as a medical student. Without them, I may not become who I am today. They are the characters in my story since 5 years duration on the road of becoming a doctor. Of course, like other movies or dramas, there are the main and minor characters that play their own unique and specific role. Each and every one of them, no matter how short they existed in the scene, they are meaningful and of significant value to complete the plot of the story.

They are my beloved parents, siblings, relatives, teachers, lecturers, friends, and acquaintances. Not to forget, all the staffs and patients in Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Rahimah Klang, Hospital Sungai Buloh, Klinik Kesihatan Bandar Botanik Klang and Klinik Kesihatan Shah Alam whom willingly and patiently entertained me as a medical student in my practical years. I may not mention you as an individual here. But know this, you are that someone if you may smile reading this. So.. ring a bell to our memories? :D

Out of words to write here. I am sharing happy moments of me and my friends on our big day (some of which I took from Facebook and Instagram). Let the pictures speak its own language. :)

Pre-convocation and Hippocratic Oath with The Girls


Registration for #MSUconvo20 rehearsal

Hippocratic Oath Ceremony with Dr. Azzra.

Hippocratic Oath ceremony. Front sitters unavoidably. Chit chatting with a doctor from Bangalore.

White coat photoshoot. 

We got lucky this picture was tweeted by @MSUkonvo20.

Now what?

Doctors at your service!


Can't remember what Dr. Siti just said that made me laugh..

Not ready!
Resolution.



I think this was candid for real ^_^ with only Dr. Nabihah ready back there! hehe


Two soul sisters they are.

Soo polite Dr. Fauhan :D

Who are you texting Dr. Shazni? Kuikui


Wink! Wink! 

They both are of same age. But Dr. Fauhan always being the eldest sister to us! :)



Dr. Aishah and her cuteness overload!

Dr. Siti, do you remember the very first time we hold hand in first year? :') 

Holding hands as a symbolic of our friendship. No matter the ups and downs we've been through we are still together.

Convocation Day!!!
Graduands entrance to the MSU Chancellor Hall.



Dr. Amalina was not in the same line.. :((

Now here are my bedside teaching team mates and study buddies. Part of my success in every exams were from their guidance. They are my strength when I'm stressed out during clinicals. I'm sure they will become a good doctor in future. They are strong not because they are alone, but their willingness to help their friends for striving our goals together as a team. Will definitely miss you guys! From left, Dr. Afee, Dr. Faiez, Dr. Aliff, Dr. Fazrin, Dr. Zahra, and Dr. Syuhada.


The only picture with seven of us on our robe on convocation day! I will make a frame of this photo. :)
Gosh they are such an energetic fellows! They just came back home from their Japan trip the day before the rehearsal. Travel buddies they are!

We called ourselves #Ganghingaq. Unfortunately, Dr. Zahra and Dr. Afee can't make it in the photograph. :( Until then okay..

Dr. Wafaa.. you taught me that no one is perfect. And that everyone deserves a second chance and be better from what they used to be. Honestly, I am grateful that we humble ourselves and accept that we both has our own flaws. I pray that you stay healthy and strong in your future journey. Be a good doctor and meet your prince charming when time comes! :P 


Convocation with Beloved Parents and Family


My heart melt that moment I see both of you smile on my convocation. Sayang Mama and ayah.

Family is what Allah chose for you. Thank you mama, ayah, abang, faris and azim for being there and support kakak for soaring our dreams together. This achievement is for us. Congrtulations to my brother too for achieving his Diploma in Accountancy!

Dr. Amalina looking gorgeous with her beloved family.


"Thank you my beloved wife for being there for me through thick and thin. You are not just my partner, you are my lover. You are not just my companion, you are my inspiration. You are not just my wife, you are my life. Thank you sweetheart for everything." ~ Dr. Nor Afee

Dr. Mohd Faiez Imann and his beloved parents.

"My key to heaven." ~ Dr. Sharifah Zahra

"My strength and my weakness. Love you so much mama ayah!" ~ Dr. Siti Khadijah

Dr. Nur Fazrin and her beloved parents.

To my beloved papa and mama, Thank you for telling me what I’m capable of. For giving me the support that I needed to build a dream to chase after. And for believing that I have the talent to reach my goals. Thank you for making me realize that I’m worth everything in this world. Again, a very special thank you goes to my wonderful and supportive parents for their love and support over the years. Without each of you, I’d be nowhere near the person I am and the person I’m still working on becoming. I love u so much, more than anything and everything. 
Your beloved son,
Dr. Nor Afee Loh

"Mum, dad. This degree is for you entirely. I love you so much." ~ Dr. Mohd Aliff Khalid

"Happiness is when your parents said, 'I'm proud of you.'. Little did they know they are the reason why." ~ Dr. Nuraishah

"I could have never came this far without their support and dua'. Thanks my family." ~ Dr. Nur Syuhada

"This degree is definitely for these two." ~Dr. Shazni Mahirah

"No words can describe how important this person is in my life. All of my achievements were due to this woman. Her words and care made me push myself just to prove I can be someone she can be proud of. Lend me your strength and courage to face my future and never stop pouring all your love cause it will be the end for me." ~Dr. Nabihah

"Kesayangan. Thanks for everything." ~ Dr. Fauhan


This would be my tribute to everyone that became part of my success. Before I end this special entry, I would like to thank Management and Science University for honouring me with the degree  Medicine Bachelor And Bachelor of Surgery. I'm proud to be MSUrian and will definitely miss my student life till the end!

Graduands of #MSUkonvo20. I love you MSU!


Budi dan jasamu kan sentiasa di hatiku.
Di sinilah mindaku mula dibina, membawaku ke puncak jaya.
Suka duka di sini, riang gembira.
Kita bagaikan bersaudara.
Kita melalui kenangan indah, kembara ilmu bersejarah.
Terima kasihku atas segala pengorbananmu, Management and Science University...
MSU pilihanku, segala jasamu di hatiku.
Impian cita menjadi nyata.
Cemerlang MSU, terbilang namamu.
MSU pilihanku, kebanggaan semua.


Thank you... Love, Dr. Raja Nor Syamim. :)