Graduated Housemanship Years

Alhamdulillah, my housemanship years has ended just a few days ago. Happy? To be honest, its a mixed feeling. While some had a smooth sailing journey, I can say mine is not. Nevertheless, I believe what Allah has put me through, has trained me of what I've become today. But I never dare to say that the training years is enough. There's just so much more to learn. And hopefully this drives me to be completely passionate in learning deeper in the field that I'm seeking forward to further later on.

Of the people I met, every single of them taught me a lesson. And I'm definitely thankful for that. Especially to the one who left me a meaningful experience that I will never forget. :) On the other hand,  they brought out the inner side of me dealing with different kinds of personality that I acquainted.

Most of the postings I've been through as a Houseman - I enjoyed it. Although, there were circumstances that made me cry,  feeling demotivated, anger and frustrated. But hey, if not because of those difficult moments, I will never taste the sweetness of progressing into a Medical Officer, don't you think so?

Of course, I'm aware that being a Medical officer is much more challenging. Now it's the time for you to make a decision on your patients with your clinical judgements. The responsibility is real now. No more backups like HO days. Be firm with your stands and be brave to face it.

Well, I don't know what more to share specifically about my Housemanship years. Maybe if you would like to shoot me up with questions, I can try to give a response in my next entry, Inshaallah.

That's all for now. I gotta go to bed.
Uhh ho, its already almost 2 am. To my juniors starting their housemanship soon,  good luck ye!

"Just keep the passion up. Always remember that its not all about your survival but it also about patient's life and hope is upon you.  Tiredness and stress will always on the road. But care, kindness, passion and at the end the smile of your patient is always the best gift that you can have." -Will always remember these words. 

  

It's been long since I spent my time reading out of medical field materials. Something about spiritual content that has somehow been left for a while. 

Awal Muharam, a new year

Assalammualaikum wbt..

It's not as easy as I imagined being a final year medical student. To be able to stay in a highly motivated spirit is one of the challenges i need to face. After all, its not always a sunshine in this life. Sometimes you will have to go through the rainy days and storms anyway.

And now i can feel it. This early 2 weeks I have been battling to regain my memory of my clinical knowledge after almost a 2 months school break. It's quite frustating though when you failed to recall what you have learned all this while. But, the worst part is that when you dont know what you have forgotten.

Today, my orthopaedic lecturer asked me, "Syamim, do you still study hard like you used to? I hope you can do better this year, okay." I stumbled upon that statement. Did my teacher sensed I have been quiet during his class? Or did he noticed that I am less able to give response during the question and answer session? Maybe. When i came to look at it, damn its true... I know myself.

Sometimes you have to contemplate yourself in order for you to wake up from your dreamy fairytales. It's the reality that you have to deal with. In a year, Inshaallah I will graduate and become a doctor (*do pray for me). I started thinking that if I am not able to train myself to be competent now, then how am I able to carry the responsibility in the future? As I am near to graduation, the less am I thinking about the title "DR" that will soon become my initials. Trust me, it is not easy to accept that soon I will be held responsbility in dealing with a person's life. It's scary. Seriously. So it's no more about fame that you will become a doctor. It's about how brave, strong and passionate you are to be in this field. There'a a saying, with power comes a great test isn't it?

Today marks the new year in Muslim calendar. And so do i need to renew my intention in seeking the knowledge. It's for the sake of Allah. He is the One that blessed me with the ability to be who I am today. Slowly, I will try my best to correct myself. Find the flaws that I have, and ask Allah to help guide me to be a better person. 

Inshaallah. I will pray for you too as well. Together. I believe that you know what you desire most, right? So let's pray together that Allah will grant what's best for us. Let's not give up till the end. Never stop believing. When you fall down, get up and try again. Someday you will find what you're searching for. Inshaallah.. Amin. :)

 This song.. The words.

p/s:Allah will give the hardest battle to His strongest soldiers. So believe in yourself, remember? :')